Bleh

Shall I tell what happened? Sean found me this morning and he was like "bitch i was waitin for you online" and im like "wtf you cant expect me to be online!" :sean uncertainly laughs: "you need to call!" "yeah yeah ok"so anyways then at lunch ashley was like (to me) dude i cant handle sean so i was left alone to chat ... so sean starts things off wonderfully by showing me his hickey :siiiiiiiiiiigh: DUDE have you noticed no one else talks about what they do with their respective partners! anyways so we talked about his ditching us and he apoplogized...then i got around to how danielle was a slut and a bitch and etc etc and well...denial is not just ariver in egypt...but he understood that all of his friends dont like her and that counts for something...and later he said if hannah and danielle (who bitch each other out like crazy...but sean wont stop it...god he has so much to learn about girls) give him an ultimatum he will pick hannah wich is good...i didnt fix a lot of things but some things i was able to make him understand...its a step but i have yet to tell him that we dont want to hear abt his exploitationsman and i thought i knew nothin about girls .. well granted over the pas tyears i have learned a LOT...and i get a newsletter on how to pick up girls and its really interestin tips and its already working...girls like me a bit more so that is good ... but before i knew nothin about girls but now i know a lot...but anyways i didnt feel well today so i didnt go to mapping...and mom is harrassing me about goin to bed early but i wanna watch my big fat obnoxious fiance and average joe ... but i might want to watch the traffic miniseries i am not sure which one...but the traffic miniseries will be replayed i bet so i will watch the reality shows ... argh damn decisions...well wait i have nothing tmw...i will tape the traffic miniseries...hell yeahgod its so nice not to have any homework

Grrr

Okay, well Paul wanted exciting stuff...so there was exciting stuff...just not GOOD exciting stuff.Aight well after I let you I took a bath and then ate...then I was off to the Sunday Night Gang...I picked Ashley up and noticed leaving my house my tank was at 1/2 and I was like hmm weird cuz my brother had filled it up on Friday (REMEMBER THIS) and I had only gone into work on Sat. so .. 1/2 tank? So I went and got Ashley...then we went to Old Navy. Usually we would go to pick Sean up but Sean was like Im workin from 2-7 i will have my mom drop me off and u can pick me up and we can go...and I was gonna take em to Rein's Deli (if you remember, I talked about that place in my old journal)So we sat there for 20 mins and we were like wtf etc and burning paper cuz we were bored so then Ashley finally called (413 245 7400 ... bitch his ass out for me) and he was home so we were like wtf and hes like um well im eating dinner with my gf and sooo and GOD MOTHERFUCKING GOD HOLY SHITBRICKING MOTHERFUCKING HORMONAL BITCHY GODSean started going out with his gf in like sept and he met him at Old Navy and I was like glad for him you know but also sad cuz then his gf would start taking him away from me cuz hes my best friend and i totally depended on him but i understood...and i got over it...but the guy wouldnt SHUT UP about his gf so I was like jesus fucking christ so yadda yadda life went on and ashley hated sean for talkin about danielle too and I heard about danielles past and she is SUCH a slut and then sean was like "oo well i was talking to her heh heh .. tryin to talk hehe and she said ooo i ahvent orgasmed in 7 months yeah baby heheh" (JSYK, I convinced him not to bang her until prom) and then the other day he said she said "havent orgied in 8 months" jesus christ...shes did it with 2 guys .. then lke 2 weeks ago they were gonna break up cus danielle couldnt shut up about this other guy at her school (they go to diffs chools) and all he wanted was sex and danielle too..so sean was gonna break up but like the pussy he is he caved in when danielle was like oo nevermind ... i dont get it... he cant trust her ne more..and thru all this he was always like i cant go wit u guys im doin danielle .. and once he made plans and then called and said im doing stuff with danielle and i was mad but i said fine...well guess what he didnt call me or ashley or email or anyhing... he "went online this morning but evan wasnt on" HELLO I AM NOT ON ALL THE TIME I HAVE OTHER STUFF TO DO LIKE SLEEP EAT AND BASEBALL OKAY!!!!!!And I met Danielle too and she LOOKS slutty and she didnt really like me bein around...shes tryin to sabotage his friendships...now all the time they have planned is right in the time framed he planned shit with us and she makes fun of hannah who is seans best friend (or one of em anyways, id be the other) cuz hannah is short...so now me and ashley are gonna kick seans ass tomorrow and not only are we gonna say you are an asshole you committed then you broke it and you wouldnt even tell us but we're gonna lay the smackdown on him about his gf...good god...i mean .. thats what friends are for and he has a decision to make and im just gonna give it to him straight .. i dont like seein him this way he is such an asshole now and before he used to be awesome and i dont even really wanna be friends wit him ne more hes an asshole and cant be trusted...so either i lose something that was lost in september or me ashley and hanah gain him back...so we will seeso me and ashley went to reins and ate while plotting how best to slit seans neck...good food manso we left and I had like a half tank left and so were driving home and jesus christ i JUST made it to the gas station next to the exit we got off...the needle was at 0...and during the ride in one stretch we hit a little bounce and so it would bounce just once right? wrong...bounced like 5 times i was like wtf then i figured it out(explanation later)So I go to the gas station and I get the gas door open and im like ummm ashley come here and i told her my bro fillin up the car fri...THE LITTLE TWAT FORGOT TO PUT THE CAP BACK ON THERE WAS NO MOTHERFUCKING CAP ON SO THE GAS WAS FALLING OUT OH MY GOOD LORD HOLY SHITBRICKSsoo i filled it all the way (ok bad mistake i admit...but its done with...id u dont know y its a bad mistake its cuz it would just keep spilling over and losing money soooo) but anyways i drove the tampon verrrrrry carefully home...and my dad was like good lord so we tried a number of ways to cover it up (hes gettin another cap tomorrow i bet he'll send butch to the car place to get a cap) and he finally found a seal - one of his rubber squeezin balls ... its a good seal so i bet itll be fine cuz tmw i have school then i have to go to mapping which is an hour away but im sure itll make it...happy paul?EDIT: after the car hit the first bounce and sent some more gas flying out .. i think that the gas like bounced up and so no gas went into the car then the gas banged down and went flying back up so there was like a little choppiness if you know what imeanif you dont i dont really care

Boring

Paul said my journal is boring so I will write a lot about my weekend latersince is not over and the sunday night gang has yet to go out ... (and i call us the beepers but my parents call us the sunday night gang and im not about to tell them why i call us the beepers...so sunday night gang is fine lol) so when we get back i'll write

Random Stuff

I had another dream about Betty...I'll keep it to myself.A-Rod is getting closer to Boston.My red sox blog kicks ass.Die, Nazis, DieAnd that's all, folks

It WAS a good game!

The Game I Went To A Couple Days Ago</a>

What I did Today

Panel: Evan Brunell, Jamsine RodriquezModerator: John AndersonNotetaker: Camilla Hampton (Don't check my spelling :)Transliterators: Claire Troiano, Laura KetchakeuJamsine and Evan began by giving a little info. about themselves.Clarke kids introduced themselvesAll seniors were in attendanceJamsine: Yeah, you better have questions for me :)What is the biggest change you've experience?E: Rough b/c I was the only deaf student. Trouble "orienting" myself.J: Agreed. Much bigger (population) Making new friends, listen hard and lipread harder. It takes time, but gets easier.John: What was it like to friends?E: People didn't know how to deal with me. They said hello, but didn't know how to carry on a long conversation with me. When I wasat Clarke everyone was my close friends. That's not true in public school. You have a few close friends.J: I was looking forward to making new friends. You ask Q's, you decide to be silly (ways to relate to others and to get attention).They asked me a lot of Q's and I was able to tell them this is what it is. I made a couple of friends and I am making more friends now.It's not easy, but it gets better.J: I din't want to use the FM. I was too embarrassed. I didn't want anyone to know wbout my hearing impairment. I realized that Ineeded an FM to help me and I didn't care what others think. I started answering questions about it. The teacher was helpful. Shewould tell the kids about it. I was a littel embarrassed for a few months, but I got over it. The kids were reeally interested in themicrophone. "You heard that?" they would say.E: I didn't like the FM for the same reason Jasmine didn't like it at first. I have been using a transliterator all through school. It has beenhelpful. When I came to school, I didn't know anyone. I made friends with my OT and she became someone I could rely on. She tellsme what's on the announcements, if the phone rings, if the teacher is whispering to another teacher... she tells me.Deb Bak: What about w/ jokes? Did it help?E: When the kids told jokes, everyone wouyld be laughing, but I didn't get it. She didn't try to clean it up. A swear word... she gave it tome straight.Hannah: Whe you has the OT, how did your classmates react?E: This was a special circumstance. Everyone knew my OT already. They knew who she was (her purpose).Claire Blanchford: Did anyone ever make fun of you?E: In my entire public school career, it happened only once, and I didn't even hear it. In health class, he imitated how I talked. Myteacher heard, not me. She flipped out. He had to go to the Principal's and got a detention and had to write a letter of apology.J: My friends joke around about how I hear, and I do, too. We joke around about pronouncing words. I laugh when I don't say it right.My boyfriend right now apologized for talking badly about my hearing impairment.John w/ student question: What if you don't like a teacher or if the teacher doesn't like you?E: It wasn' hard. They loved me. They would say, "I am going to miss you. You made my life better. You made the class better. " I didhave one teacher who didn't like me, but she didn't let it show.J: The teachers love to know about you and ask questiosn about you. I have fun with them. It's like Clarke School. That's what it's like atNHHS.E: The teachers like to make fun. He said, "Oh, you're here again!" (jokingly).Hannah: Did you meet your teachers on the first day of school, or a couple of days before school started?E: The OT informed the teachers and introduced me to them.J: I had to go a day before to find out where my classroom was and my locker. My sister and my brother went there (NHHS) and theyrecognized me and knew who I was.Claire Blachford: Do the teachers sometimes forget who you are in class?E: I never noticed b/c the OT was there. It didn't matter. There were a couple of times where they would come between my OT and meand just stand there, but would apologize. They always try to walk around. When my OT wasn't there, my teachers would bend overbackwards and change lessons for me. That was helpful.Hannah: Would you get a replacement (OT)?E: I had one up through 9th grade. before I would freak out when she wasn't there, but now, if she can't go, i say, "No problem. I'll befine!"J: They don't forget because they have to wear the microphone. They feel really good about it...like they are a popstar. When they seethe microphone, they know that I am there.J: My tutor, Mrs. Shorter is the one person who gives me advice. She is the person I trust. She makes me feel really comfortable. Sheencouraged me to get the FM. She helped me a lot. I think if she wasn't there, it would have probably taken me a long time to getthrough this (adjustment to high school).John: What do you do if the class is really hard?J: I have a 1:1 tutor to help me with my homework. She would help me go through the textbook.E: I have only hard that problem in math. I had a tutor for that. I had one in 9th grade and 10th grade. English has never been hard.Science and HIstory weren't hard enough for me to get a tutor. I stopped tutoring in 11th grade and my grades have been fine.Claire Blatchford: Can you talk to us about "the wrong crowd?"E: I went from Clarke where everyone were hard workers and they dressed like you guys. As I got older, people started changingmore. Guys would were makeup, etc. One of my former friends had flipped his car with people in it. They were smoking weed. That'sthe wrong crowd. And if you don't like it, don't join it!J: There a lot of different people in high school. I am friends with everybody. But I don't always join them in things like smoking weedand drinking. For me to be there friend is like me being there for them. I am not popular and I am not a nerd. And I am really proud ofmyself for who I am. I don't want to be a bad person who fails (my classes) and partied too much. I am proud of myself for not doing iteven though I am surrounded by people who do.E: I thought my life would be different. I thought, "Here is my one chance to be someone different!" But you can't. You are who you are.J: Some of my friends aren't happy with who they are and started taking their hearing aids off. I tell them to keep wearing your hearingaids. You may turn out to be a great person who other people will be interested in.John: One of the things that have impressed me is that the kids are very comfortable with their hearing loss, but all of them will go outnext year and have to go to a new school. What did you do to advocate for yourself?E: Once a year, Ms. Bak and I would go out and tell people about the T-T-Y and to help educate them. I still have meetings about (me).people have questions about the cochlear implant because I just got it.Deb Bak: Can I tell a story (about Evan)?(At the beginning of) his 8th grade year, I prepared an outline with some things I thought we should tell the kids. Evan said, no, I thinkwe should talk about this, this and this! He really has been an advocate since then.(Deb introduced, "student orientations" as a way to provide Evan's peers about hearing loss.)E: I used to think, "I just want to be hearing!" I thought it would be simpler. We (deaf kids) have been given an important responsibilityto educate others in my path som that everyone who I come in catact with will know. Where would deaf people be without me? Whatwill other deaf people have to do?J: I had a group of friends who asked me, "Can I look at your hearing aid?" "Do you know sign language?" And they didn't know aboutthe T-T-Y. and I said, "Give me your number and I will call you and you can talk with the operator." They love that! They think it's cool!Deb Bak: What is the easiest way for you to keep in touch with your friends, etc.?E: Doesn't like the T-T-Y. I do use the Internet. I use IM (Instant Messaging). You don't feel limited (like the T-T-Y). I was in a chat roomtalking about baseball and I forgot to tell them I was deaf. It wasn't until at a year later that I told them I was deaf.J: I use the phone, but I talk loudly. My Mom can hear my conversations, so I ask her to go upstairs so she can't hear me. I do tell myfriends when they are talking to fast.John: Final thoughts?Claire Troiano: What are your plans after high school? How are you getting ready for college?E: I am sending out applications and scholarship applications for money. The only thing different was in my essay. I made a point totalk about my deafness.E (continued) I thought it had to have Sports Journalism as a major. I also was looking for a school with other deaf students. It doesn'thave to have 11, 000 deaf students like RTID. It could have 10. Then I though... location. I wanted to stay on the East Coast or Hawaii. This brings me to my final criteria... (described coop. and working in the field of Sports Journalism at Boston University).E: If they have questions, they can email agentbrunell@mailforce.netJasmineR. Doesn't have an email address.Thanks to everyone, especially Jasmine Rodriquez and Evan Brunell!Camilla and the Mainstream Crew

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OHHHHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Okay see I was going to work Winter Shack (sells food) at the basketball game...and I usually go to the basketball games but I couldn't watch this one right...cuz its a new school so they wont let you eat in the gym grr so we were out in the hallway and they were playing SHEPERD HILL (Southbridge is our #1 rivalry, but SH is wicked close to #1) right ... so we were just sitting there and every once in a while I'd check the score...11-9 them44-31 them63-62 usThen we finally started closing up and I got to catch the last 2 minutes...an they were up by 4, then 2, then 3, then 1, etc etc you know basketball...fouling yadda yadda yadda...So then with 2.1 seconds left, we miss a layup and they grab the ball and we foul em u know the story...they were up by 1...miss!!! then he MADE it arrrgh so now we needed a 3 pointer to win with 2.1 seconds left...so we were all hoping for a layup to send it to OT ... but you cant get a layup with 2.1 seconds...oh I forgot to tell you...on the missed layup Nate Walker injured his foot (Hes one of my good friends and prolly the best player) so we were like OKAY IM GOIN HOMMME : starts gettin ready but still stays there :...Anywayssss...so the ball is passed to Vayda (if Nate's not the best, Kevin is) and he dribbles speedily down the court...steps 2 steps past halfcourt. .2 seconds left...he throws the ball ... and everyones like OH-KHAY well we lost time to go home ... ok so listen it was 72-70 them ok...and the throw was a piece of crap it was like a lob throw had no power...but it BOUNCES OFF THE BACKBOARD* AND INTO THE BASKET! SCORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WARRIORS WIN WARRIORS WIN WARRIORS WIN WARRIORS WINThe whole mahfahin place exploded and i was high fivin everyone and the team was piling on Kev and I high fived him ... oh man it was awesome

One semester dowwwwwn, one to go0o0o0o0o0o

Let us start off by dancing to the tune of..A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston,A-ROD is coming to Boston!Okay, stop dancing, jesus. That got a little dirty there.Some quick updates.My ex-gf told me the other day she wants to bang me again ... but she can't until after February. But you take 'em as they come.I had an awesome dream last night. I was at AGBell...I JUST walked in the door of the Marriott...and I saw Nathan and I was like holla dawg and we slapped hands and then I was like ooh mama I saw this girl, blond, walk right by me and I was like ... holy sheeit! So I turned around and I walked up to her and I said hey, where are you going in such a rush and she was like (she was hearing) ooo nowhere just out...im bored...and i said what ur bored? well i can fix that and she was like haha how come and i said use ur imagination and she looked at me in this way ... OMG DUDE SHE WAS SO MFING HOT holy jesus...so I was like I just got here from MA...wanna come check out my room I havent gone up there yet...so me, her, nathan and nathan's friends went up to our room and we just started putting stuff away and I was talkin to the girl the whole time (ok i admit it it was the boobies bounce girl...just younger and .. cleaner. like 50% boobies bounce, 40% erin mori and 10% britney spears)...so anyways nathan and his friends went out to "pick up the ladies" and me and her just stayed there and made out...and we were talkin and she was like Im a virgin and I said oh really and she said ur so hot i bet you arent...and I said well no im not...but it doesnt matter and she said well i wanna have sex wit u .. and since u r accomplished i would feel better havin sex wit u and not wit another virg so I was like aight cool so we had sex...I'll skip ahead...the other 3 days were just mostly making out, sex, having our friends gawk at us, making out at the baseball game, the movies, the beach ... omg it was soo funny we were at the angels game sitting together and we were making out and paul was sitting behind us and he was just like ... his face was so funny he was like : jaw drops : omg i cant believe this and i was like well BELIEVE it shes mine not yours...and sarah couldnt believe it either and erik and top were like "grr" and i'm like "F you" haha...And she was going to boston College! She said she had been to boston 3 yrs ago on a little vaca wit her fam and she loved it (she lives in ca) so much she wanted to go to college there soo oBC it is and I was like ffffff... yeah and then I got home and i was unpacking and a condom fell out of my SOCK so I called her (hmm...i could use the phone..sweet) and I was like LMAO I found a condom wrapper in my sock and she was like LMFAO LMFAO and I was like well that's 19 of 20 wrappers acct for (20 TIMES IN THREE NIGHTS!?) and I hope it was left at the hotel or my mom will kill me...and that was it. Gooooooooood stuff.

Ah yes...

Finals...*deep inhalation of breath*I love finals. I love it so much, I'm forcing you to read this story I wrote...2 years ago. Bwah ha ha ha. (Note: this is the rough draft of the story, not the final draft. The message is the same...the final draft was just a little more descriptive, that's all.)THE ROCK CONCERT One day, millions of years ago, God decided to hold a rock concert. He created a band called God’s Rock Angels with immense musical talent, and told them to come up with songs to play at the concert. Every man, animal, and plant attended. In that rock concert, they then juked and jived to the sounds of God’s Rock Angels. God’s Rock Angels started a new song, and decided to turn the volume to its maximum potential. They asked God for bigger speakers, and God complied. They asked God for a hundred strobe lights and a hundred spotlights, and God complied. With this increase in volume and blinding white light, the Rock Angels embarked on their hit single, “A Halo for You”. Unfortunately for the men, it was too loud for their fragile ears. They all started running for the exit, but some did not make it in time, and their ears shattered, and became deaf. Unfortunately for the men, the lights were too bright for their shy eyes. They all started running for the exit, but some did not make it in time, and their eyes shut down, and became blind. And to this day, God atones for his mistake by continuing the hierarchy of deaf and blind people; so that everyone will never forget the day when the music was too loud and the lights were too bright.